Saturday, October 6, 2012
Writing Your Story
I love Donald Miller - I have thoroughly enjoyed his books! He is a great writer and I find inspiration from his words. I am in the process of reading his latest, Storyline 2.0, and participating in his website about writing your own life story. I LOVE this concept!! I love it so much I am looking for some people to participate with me and do a small group study of the book. Interested??
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
And the Winner Is...
My oldest daughter's volleyball team is on a winning streak! Too bad they have 1 more game and then tournaments - they finally won their 1st game Saturday, barely lost yesterday and won today! To see how she has improved is awesome!!! She is truly having the best school year she has had for as long as I can remember. She has straight A's, is feeling confident and is involved in extra-curriculars. WOW!!
She is the winner in our family while I feel like the Loser! I still can't shake my frustration with what is going on with me right now. I went to school for 2 years to earn this extra certification and unfortunately I am in a holding pattern, well maybe a slight slope downward with my situation at my job. Let's pray that something gives....
To take this to even lower level, I allowed this frustration to bubble over and lash out at my youngest daughter. She is an amazing girl - super smart, extremely sweet, and probably has the most spiritual, gracious heart of anyone I know. I broke tonight and yelled at her for reasons so unimportant in hindsight that my eyes are tearing up as I type this. I have apologized, comforted her and discussed the situation that brought about the confrontation but I know that the damage is done - the words I said and the tone of my voice can not be retracted. Don't get me wrong, I didn't curse at her or tear her down, but I did upset her and that is wrong. I want the best for my kids - I sometimes confuse what I want for them for what they want and is best for them. No matter what is going on with me, I have to step back and separate my issues from my parenting. My next reaction will be to close my eyes, communicate with God to let it go and then turn my focus on what he has given me - my wonderful family!
In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, who are caught in the schemes he devises.
I am not calling my children weak (verseoftheday.com), I am calling myself wicked and arrogant!
Dear Lord,
Please forgive me for not respecting the gift you have lent me; my children. They are not mine, they are yours and I need to remember that. I know that although I may feel like I am facing a storm, I know you are the calmer of the storms. You can allow men to walk on water in the roughest of seas! I ask you to give me the strength to climb out of the boat and meet you on the water. I thank you for all that you have blessed me with - I know that the simple things I take for granted are blessings that countless others would not take for granted. I know that you are with me always and are carrying me through this. You will guide me; I have to remember to be quiet and listen to you!
She is the winner in our family while I feel like the Loser! I still can't shake my frustration with what is going on with me right now. I went to school for 2 years to earn this extra certification and unfortunately I am in a holding pattern, well maybe a slight slope downward with my situation at my job. Let's pray that something gives....
To take this to even lower level, I allowed this frustration to bubble over and lash out at my youngest daughter. She is an amazing girl - super smart, extremely sweet, and probably has the most spiritual, gracious heart of anyone I know. I broke tonight and yelled at her for reasons so unimportant in hindsight that my eyes are tearing up as I type this. I have apologized, comforted her and discussed the situation that brought about the confrontation but I know that the damage is done - the words I said and the tone of my voice can not be retracted. Don't get me wrong, I didn't curse at her or tear her down, but I did upset her and that is wrong. I want the best for my kids - I sometimes confuse what I want for them for what they want and is best for them. No matter what is going on with me, I have to step back and separate my issues from my parenting. My next reaction will be to close my eyes, communicate with God to let it go and then turn my focus on what he has given me - my wonderful family!
In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak, who are caught in the schemes he devises.
I am not calling my children weak (verseoftheday.com), I am calling myself wicked and arrogant!
Dear Lord,
Please forgive me for not respecting the gift you have lent me; my children. They are not mine, they are yours and I need to remember that. I know that although I may feel like I am facing a storm, I know you are the calmer of the storms. You can allow men to walk on water in the roughest of seas! I ask you to give me the strength to climb out of the boat and meet you on the water. I thank you for all that you have blessed me with - I know that the simple things I take for granted are blessings that countless others would not take for granted. I know that you are with me always and are carrying me through this. You will guide me; I have to remember to be quiet and listen to you!
Monday, October 1, 2012
If it breaks it isn't strong enough
Irony for the day... I swear God sent this dog to us to really teach me more about how my life is a metaphor of his behavior.
Remember how he kept breaking out of his cage and destroying things around the house? Well, we have been able to move the crate, turn it so only the small door is the one we use and reinforce the areas he was breaking out through. He has actually been doing very well - he goes in relatively easily when we leave and hasn't tried to escape to our knowledge. However, he is not "broken". Since he can't get out, he has instead turned to breaking and destroying the plastic tray of the kennel. He has already destroyed the crate bed he had, ripped the blanket that we put in and now the plastic tray is in one large piece, a medium piece and a few smaller pieces. There are some spots there is no plastic.
Am I upset? Sure! This means I now have to buy a new tray. But, this new tray will be stronger and better - I am going to buy a large drip oil pan (reinforced steel). Will he try to destroy it? Maybe once, but then he will realize that it will not so easily be broken or torn. Hopefully this will help him relax and play with his toys and sleep while we are gone.
Isn't this how my life works too? I fight against the One that knows what is best for me. He tries to keep me safe and comfortable - despite myself! He keeps showing me there is a better, easier way. I am broken and He is the only one that can show me how to be fixed.
On a different front - I still haven't said hi to my scale but I wore an outfit today that fit great that last time I wore it, I found it a little snug!! Also, I called my girls' school today about subbing on my morning(s) off and they were very helpful saying that I would definitely be used; teachers like to just take off 1/2 days for appointments and I can do Kdg. and preschool as they are 1/2 day! I truly am excited that God is opening this door for me!! Thank you Lord!
Remember how he kept breaking out of his cage and destroying things around the house? Well, we have been able to move the crate, turn it so only the small door is the one we use and reinforce the areas he was breaking out through. He has actually been doing very well - he goes in relatively easily when we leave and hasn't tried to escape to our knowledge. However, he is not "broken". Since he can't get out, he has instead turned to breaking and destroying the plastic tray of the kennel. He has already destroyed the crate bed he had, ripped the blanket that we put in and now the plastic tray is in one large piece, a medium piece and a few smaller pieces. There are some spots there is no plastic.
Am I upset? Sure! This means I now have to buy a new tray. But, this new tray will be stronger and better - I am going to buy a large drip oil pan (reinforced steel). Will he try to destroy it? Maybe once, but then he will realize that it will not so easily be broken or torn. Hopefully this will help him relax and play with his toys and sleep while we are gone.
Isn't this how my life works too? I fight against the One that knows what is best for me. He tries to keep me safe and comfortable - despite myself! He keeps showing me there is a better, easier way. I am broken and He is the only one that can show me how to be fixed.
On a different front - I still haven't said hi to my scale but I wore an outfit today that fit great that last time I wore it, I found it a little snug!! Also, I called my girls' school today about subbing on my morning(s) off and they were very helpful saying that I would definitely be used; teachers like to just take off 1/2 days for appointments and I can do Kdg. and preschool as they are 1/2 day! I truly am excited that God is opening this door for me!! Thank you Lord!
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